Well... we lost our first "baby" tonight. Our lil Benjamin is gone. I don't know how to handle it, or control it, and can't stop crying. We got him 3 months after we got married, December 2007. He had been his perfect self and acted fine fo...r as long as I can tell you, and Noah and I found him about 6:30pm tonight in the back yard when we yelled his name and he didn't respond :'[ Ohhhh my lil Benny how I miss you so. You always knew how to be ornery and it could make me so mad... but you always made up for it and showed me even more you were a good boy. I am so confused to why this happened.. I hate asking the question why, when there is no answer. It was so hard to explain to my 3 year old what happened to Benny... him asking "why Mommy why!? Why is Benny gone!?" broke my heart even more. Him and Zacary both don't understand fully -- but do know he is in the clouds in doggie heaven. We love you so much Benny -- RIP!!! Zacary kept sayin Benny's name and Eli told him he is sick and gone now up in doggie heaven. Breaks me so much. Eli then asked me if Benny would be back when Kylee is here :'[:'[ I will miss you forever. I was happy for his 5th birthday coming up Monday too... we will celebrate for you and keep Belle in the same happy hands you always did! ♥
We are not sure what happened. He was perfectly fine and has been for so long. All we can wonder is if he was sick of some sort, ate something bad, or he also killed a mouse last week and we wonder if he got poison or rabies from it!?!? It is so unknown and makes me so so sad. :[ We also found a pile of puke tonight too.... poor poor Benny! :[
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